well, had my auditions for the ensemble tonight. I think I did much better nervousness wise on the vocal pieces than the music pieces but they were impressed with my playing with accompaniment. so thanks to you Mr. O. ! Then I went to talk with Vital. That's when he told me that he's told head of res about me cuz I told him that I was in the stairwell writing one night to release my anger and stress. also told him it was cuz I didnt feel safe with myself in my room due to temptations. so he told me I should go to the counselling centre. then he had to go cuz he was on duty so I left. then he came around down here and came in and asked how I was and that's when I told him that I wouldn't go to counselling due to my previous experience with Moron. well I didn't say specifically with Moron but said with a previous counsellor. he said well if it becomes more overwhelming than what I can handle with writing then to come and talk with him and we can arrange something. That was nice, I thought. Still hate myself for putting so much trust into him when I barely know him. But at least he was considerate enough to tell me that he told someone.
Anyways met up with Eika and found out we're very similar in a lot of ways which was cool. she thinks about the deed but has never actually done it which I gave her credit for.